Saturday, September 19, 2009

Change

when something changes, it requires one to accept, adapt and start getting used to it...


tho changes keep happening throughout one's life, for me, loads of changes have happen for me n my fam in the past year...

Me sis leavin for Zambia was da biggest change for her n for me too.. i now had to survive on myself, n proof everyone im not always the lil kid anymore. it took sometime, but i think i've faired pretty well, considering how strict the parents can be!

Also, my uni freinds half of em decided to cont studyin abroad..which meant our group got smaller, n subang gang was *poof*. so, i started driving to uni alone, i found myself eating lunch alone, or chillin in the library more then i needed to... it was very weird in d beginning, but then again u dont have much of a choice, so gotta suck it up!
.. but somehow it can still b weird for me.. except i LOVE driving alone cuz karaoke like gile n nobody has to suffer!!

then few months ago, my aunty who is much elderly with Parkinson's moved to b near us.
this by far has been a major change for us all as a whole family, because i guess our lifestyles n hers were very different.. so its taking time slowly understanding her mindset, and working things out...i realize its not easy caring for an elderly, especially if they have illness...there's many things that they cant do anymore, and that take a toll on em...
i get scared thinking of growing old..especially growing old alone...and being ill a that age! definitely can be depressing...how 2 make sure this doesn't happen? i feel sad sometimes seeing my aunt jz staring into the space pondering on her life.. i dont think this is how life is suppose to be..there must be something the elderly can do for others too!
*Tuesdays with Morrie comes
to mind*

well,not all changes r bad i suppose, to have my bro n amy back here has been a nice change.. at least the attention isnt all on me now! i hope?! n futsal is back thx 2 em too! its jz good to have more ppl at home la..i tink my parents like it.. it saves em from annoyin each other :p

and this year, more of my close frens left for studies... its really getting harder n harder and now because witout em, things aren't the same.. even tho thre's msn/gchat/skype/fb.. not being able to go mamak, hv a sleepova, do crazee stuff
2gath sux big time! *boo!*
tho because of these occurrences, it has caused me to be open minded and be with ppl who r either much older or younger then me.. can b v.interesting i say!

change. like it or not, it has to happen.
on my part, i think so far change has made me grow up a lil bit more.
but things like friendship and bond don't change, and for that im thankful.



Wednesday, September 02, 2009

the not so happenin summer hols 09

ok here's a few reasons why my summer holidays were not as great as i would have liked it to be:

no.1 - i had to continue to write my thesis proposal while everybody was having a bomb going here n there... me on the other hand couldn't go anywhere cuz my conscious wouldn't let me have much fun till i got me work done... it wasnt very successful cuz i procrastinated like nobody's biz n did some real last min work in the end!

no.2 - i got real sick... so sick that i cried coz my thesis proposal was almost due! and that meant i had to stay home...quarantined meself thanks to h1n1.... imagine not being able to go out even for mamak!

no.3 i wanted to save money, n try not takin money frm parents....so i didnt travel anywhre (i could have if i really wanted) and i got a part time job. tho it didnt pay much.. i was in it more for experience.. so much for sacrifices huh?

no.4 i got sick again.. which meant i couldnt go work... even tho it was jz cough.. but thanks to h1n1, ppl r so paranoid, they give u 'THAT' look even if u sneeze in public! so annoying...jz stayed home watching tv...it got quiet depressing after awhile...

no.5 i dunoo what's gotten over me, i didnt take any rash /adventurous actions even when i could.. missed out on quiet a bit of fun- paintball, HK, Banting road trip, etc... got myself to blame. something is wrong with me man!

there u have it.. my wonderful holiday. if it weren't for friends being around to hang out..i think i would hv died! but then again..they all left/leaving one by one... lagi more sad!

ahh... back to uni again.. wonder if i shuld b happy or sad? i tink i'll b happysad.